For the past week I have been feeling sick. Not like stuffy nose bad cough sick, but like real sick. I am feeling weak and all I want to do if pass out. I haven't been sleeping that much, I can't. I could be manic, but if I were manic then I would have the high feeling. I definetly don't feel high. I've barely been out of my bed. I've been in bed most of the time watching Whose Line, SVU, and House. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I am depressed. I don't know why I would be. I mean I have a good life. I have a best friend that everyone wishes for. I have a great family. Ok, I don't have a great family, but I do have a normal one. As normal as any family can be I guess.

I just went up to Amy's to get my pants and RENT back. I missed RENT. I am obsessed and I'll admit it. Ames and I are gonna hang out tomorrow. I know I have been kind of ignoring her lately. I just haven't been feeling up to human contact much. On my way home I saw Drew at Marcus' so I waved. He waved back and it made my day. Is that bad, with one wave/smile he can make me feel so much better. I haven't heard from him since the night we "snuck" out. I don't think he likes me like that. I probably messed things up again like I always do. I'm so stupid. Oh well, I should be used to this by now. It shouldn't still hurt, but it does. I should've listen to my english teacher when he said that writers are lonely people. I hate that, but I am begining to believe that it is true. God, I like Drew so much. I guess I'm not pretty enough, or smart enough, it's probably both. All in all, I'm just not good enough. && that hurts so much. At least he's still my friend, I think. I don't know...UGH! Well I'm gonna go cry and listen to some The Used. Maybe I'll write something. Who knows?

Later,
Tinks.